Dreaming Through the Chaos

So, a couple of years ago I went through a season that was probably one of the hardest this far in my life. I just couldn’t catch a break and without sounding TOO dramatic, it felt like my life was crumbling down. I was overwhelmed by school, hated my job and was not okay with things that were going on in my family. That year I went through so much change and I am SO thankful that Jesus is so constant, so patient and so okay with my humanity. In all of the chaos in my life He didn’t mind my questions or my anger or my doubt. He allowed me to find comfort in Him and rest in Him. To this day I am still overwhelmed with how good to me he was during that time. I went into that year with a lot of big dreams and came out of that year with

EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. MET.

I finished school.

I got new job.

I took my dream vacay and got to see my best friend in HAWAII.

I bought my first car.

I moved out of Lubbock.

I Got to see TAYLOR SWIFT.

And one of my personal favorites is that I got the guy I have been dreaming about since I was 15.

A whole checklist of things I wanted were checked off. PRAISE JESUS. But guys, all of those things happened in between a lot of change, brokenness, hurt, frustration, doubt and chaos. It was all just bitter sweet.

Here is why I am sharing this…

Since that year, it has been a challenge for me to step into a new season of dreaming big and I don’t quite know if it is out of fear or doubt that it can be done again. I have also had the thought cross my mind of…

“Is it even time to be dreaming because the world is pretty cray cray and I’m not that patient to wait so I will just wait until things chill out.”

And…

“I do have all these dreams, but God is dealing with a lot of other things in the world so are my desires priority right now.”

This is me just being 100% real with you guys because these are legit things I have thought about lately. I have been holding on to some promises and dreams for some time and I walked into 2020, like most people, thinking this will be the best year ever and given the circumstance it hasn’t been. I know people who have had their weddings canceled, vacations canceled, lost their jobs and just had their whole worlds turned upside down because of this stupid pandemic. It has been chaotic.

However, the sweetest words were spoken to my soul about a month ago and after meditating on them for a while, I thought I would share them with you.

“Your promises didn’t get lost in the chaos.”

He isn’t done.

He didn’t forget about you or your dreams or anything he has ever promised you. Don’t give up and continue to hold tight to what he has promised because THEY ARE COMING. Be patient (preaching to myself), be confident and sure that no amount of chaos will ruin the good that is coming your way. It might just be me, but I have a feeling that the worlds chaos is not going to be going away anytime soon, but I know without a doubt neither is Jesus. So it is safe to say that we are in good hands don’t you think?

My encouragement in this crazy time in the world is to make a list of all your dreams, goals, desires and anything the Lord has ever promised you. Then, start digging into the word because there are a ton to hold onto in there if you are unsure or need clarity. Start somewhere. Start now. As always, I am rooting for you and cheering you on.

Xoxo,

Em